Grief: A Complex Blend of Anguish and Beauty

A few months ago, I came across a profoundly empathetic post. It resonated with me so deeply that I feel compelled to share it with you. The loss of a loved one often shatters our understanding of the world. Grief, a complex blend of anguish and beauty, can be the most devastating experience. The author, with remarkable sensitivity, reminds us that even in our darkest moments, we can find solace in the profound love we shared with those we’ve lost. I hope these words touch your heart as they did mine. Thank you, @The After Glow, for sharing your poignant words of healing with us all.

When you are in the midst of grief . . .

Nothing seems worse than this feeling.

It is misery.

It’s not just being sad like everyone (including myself) used to think. There were so many emotions swirling around. And like throwing a dice you never knew what emotions you would get day to day or even hour to hour. I honestly didn’t even know some of these emotions existed until they were there. They were frightening. I never had practice feeling these before. With so many hitting in an unpredictable manner. Especially at 3am when I woke up to my new unwanted reality. Losing her again. Anxiety. Mind racing. Unable to calm it enough for sleep to come. So I walked around exhausted and disoriented in this new world I didn’t recognize without her.

Grief is honestly the single worst thing I ever had to go through (and still going through).

It is the darkest and most helpless time I can ever describe.

But I still feel lucky somehow.

I had this person in my life who I loved so much.

So much that when she was gone . . . it wrecked me.

I am blessed.

Blessed to have been so close to someone in this lifetime. So close that when she was gone I felt like part of me went with her. I know in my heart that all the laughs, smiles and memories we had together truly outweigh the tears I had to shed.

Grief made me think.

Thinking of the many people in this world who never get the chance to be close to someone and knew that the feelings were entirely mutual.

But I did.

Those people will never know the deep pits of grief.

But I would choose the latter over and over again.

We are going through these emotions because love was there first. Love is one of the most powerful emotions. And when that person isn’t here anymore to receive it from us . . . or to get it from them . . .

It should wreck us.

But I would always choose it. Again and again.

Because living a life without love and such special connections would be pretty dark.

And for so many years I didn’t realize how lucky I really was.

Grief made me understand.

Understand that I was blessed.

I AM blessed. To grieve someone so special.

And I will until the day I get to see her again.

Seeing her again. That thought always keeps me going.

I’m on my way.

Shared with permission from The After Glow